There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
…He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
11 Weeks: January 5-11
How far along? 11 weeks (2 months and 3 weeks)
Babies are the size of: Limes
Weight gain: Still zilch, but my appetite is returning, so we should see some growth soon!
Maternity clothes: I’m still hanging in there with lots of yoga pants and saggy tank tops. So comfy.
Sleep: Sleep and I aren’t friends anymore. 🙁 Hoping to reconcile soon.
Best moment this week: It was a difficult week. A dear friend and former BCM student of ours, Ashlee, passed away on Wednesday, just shy of her 21’st Birthday. Shane and I were honored to pray and worship God with her in the hospital before she met her Savior face to face. After Cystic Fibrosis had ravaged her body for so long, it is a blessing to know she is free.
That day, God gave me a glimpse of what our twins could be like. A couple of girls, twins and also our former BCM students, were there loving on and praying for Ashlee. Their heart to selflessly be at her side, laugh and cry with her, was inspiring to me. I truly hope our twins will be just as compassionate and Christ-like.
Miss Anything? I do miss that feeling of competency. I know this is exactly where God wants me: dependent on Him. But I would be lying if I didn’t acknowledge my fleshly longing for independence. The Holy Spirit gives me so much grace.
Movement: No. I am dying to feel something.
Food cravings: Pineapple upside-down cake, and DOLE whip from Disney world… and flip flops. I really just crave some sunshine and warm weather!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still the usual.
Gender prediction: We still think they are Boys.
The heart beat test predicts that a heart rate of less than 150=boy, more than 150=girl. For our first ultrasound the heartbeats were 181 and 185. That’s 2 big points for us having girls! We will have to wait and see!
Labor Signs: Nope.
Symptoms: A lot of back pain and occasional cramps, in addition to the loss of appetite and exhaustion.
Mood: I have been relatively down this week. But you know what? That’s ok! I can lean on God as my comfort. I know Jesus weeps with us in our sorrow.
Lullaby of the week: Beautiful Things by Gungor:
“You make me new, you are making me new.”
Truth I’m dwelling on: Despite the adversity, mourning, frustration, fear, and uncertainty, Jesus is solid. I KNOW I am standing on the solid rock, but why do I react as though I am in an earthquake? I hate this about my perspective, but I appreciate that Jesus is patient with me.
Looking forward to: Ultrasound next week. We wont find out the gender yet, but I can’t wait to see these kids again. I am also looking forward to spending time at the gym, and hopefully working out some of these conflicting emotions through exercise while listening to a much-needed sermon.Thank you for reading and supporting our sweet babies, friends, and family in your prayers!